This is something that I have been thinking about and something that I feel led to share with you. Just think about it and see what the Lord tells you.
Okay, for the last few months, there have been two scenarios that keep coming up. Him threatening to move out and him staying away all night and not letting you know anything.
Think about it this way instead of in the circumstance way. What if the Lord is testing you to see how you are going to keep reacting to these to cycles that you keep going through? Yes, there is a lesson for your husband to learn, but what is yours?
Okay, the one where he keeps telling you about him moving. Basically you know that the next time you need to basically tell him that you do not want him to move or to get a divorce. That you love him and you always have. That you have forgiven him for the things that he has done but he must stop putting this over your head. That if that is what he wants, then he has to make the choice. That he is free to do what he wants to do. That you know that you can live without him, but you choose not too. Then set him free in word and action.
The last one where he doesn't come home, don't ask him any questions about it, but maybe what the Lord wants you to do is start to pray for both of them when this happens. Do you remember when the Lord walked by that bush and went to get a piece of fruit? Remember how he rebuked the bush and it withered? The reason for that is because it was not producing fruit, yet he did not fret over it. He basically told it to die because it was not doing what it was supposed to do. Well, what about this relationship with him and this OW. What fruit is it producing? Is it producing the fruit of the Lord? No, it is not. So why should it continue? Use the word to pray for your husband and the OW. Use the promises of the Lord.
Take the scripture from the Bible and use it as your prayer. Like the one about putting thorn bushes in your husbands path so that the only path he can walk on is the one that is back to you. Yes, you can not change their free will and God doesn't change ours, but he does put obstacles in our way that cause us to do the purposes that he has for us. Do you understand what I'm saying?
He won't change your free will, but he sure can make you feel uncomfortable about something that you are doing that you shouldn't be. He is your father and your husband's father. Would not your mom or dad do things to try and make you not do something that they new was going to hurt you? Did they make the decision for you, or did they give you information so that you would think about what you were doing? Yes, sometimes we did what we wanted to do anyway (free will) and then sometimes we changed our course because of what they said made us feel uncomfortable about what we were doing. Another free will choice of our own with some guidance from people that love us dearly.
I hope that all of this is making sense, because I know what I'm trying to say, but I just don't know if it is coming out the same way that I am seeing and hearing it.
