I get it

[Believe6]

Babe,
Thank you for the reminder... I didn't break him so I can't fix him. Yes, so true. It seems like such a long road and you are so brave and patient. I pray for patience in this. I don't want another marriage. If this doesn't work out, although I pray every day it will and in my heart I believe it can, I will learn to live my life on my own. I have a great set of friends. Two or three ladies who I can go to with my struggles.

I agree too that here's a good place to vent and just listen to my own thoughts. I am glad I have somewhere that feels safe and where I know others have experienced both sides of this--- R and D. Either is an option... but so is the final one... death. Not that I will do anything.

I read in a forgiveness book that we often don't think about the fact that our partner could and will pass. We think we have all the time in the world. And that the only way we can lose our partner is through D at this middle stage. But really we have many ways to lose our partner.

They could stay and be a stranger to us. They could leave and be a friend to us again. They could return and we could be better than ever. They could pass on.

Either way, this journey is about us. It's about who we want to be in the world and the life we want to forge. It's about learning to face ourselves and the life we've built and to decide if it's the one we really wanted.

I know my life wasn't perfect. But it felt pretty darn close. But now, I get to make it even better. I get to become even stronger, more compassionate, less driven, more available, happier, healthier, wiser, and may even more free.

Have a great day, Babe!