I'm sorry you are going through this. It must be so hard with him hiding out from your D and connecting with ow/gf. My H is living at home and swears he is no longer in contact with the ow which I believe because for a long time I was checking everything and I have a tracker on his phone. I know. I am not supposed to. We are supposed to detach. I get it. It's hard. Especially when they are home. But I have stopped checking things. I still find myself glancing at his phone, tablet or computer if I am walking by or he is in bed. We still sleep in the same bed although mostly on the edges.
I am not sure how we are all navigating this when we are all "sheltering in place." We are still able to go take walks, hike and shop when necessary. I will admit, I am enjoying my coctails at night. It is helping with the stress. Better than the alternative.
We have to keep working on ourselves. When your H is "reading" or helping with D, are you able to do a hobby you love? Read a book, listen to a podcast, sit outside? Something for you? We should commit to that. Sending good vibes.
W (me): 50 H: 46 M: 21 T: 25 S:17 D:15 BD 11/2019
Fate whispers to the warrior, "You can not withstand the storm" And the warrior whispers back, "I am the storm." ~Unknown