May, Things are weird. As weird as I anticipated them to be. H is super engaged & around. Helping me prep like the pyscho that I’ve become. So helpful. So involved with the family. The sex is insane and constant. I asked a friend who is working on her masters in psychology if hysterical bonding can be done by the betrayer. Because it’s getting that ridiculous. He sleep sleeps with me intermittently. Still super careful around the girls. If they are checked out for the night before we are he’s in bed with me. Otherwise on the couch. But he’s still supposedly still prepping to leave. I have no idea what’s going on. Like everything else right now I’m just rolling with it. Because there is no book or real guidance I can find for what ever the h3ll this is. Even my IC is like “ lay boundaries where you need them you gotta let it play out to see what happens.” It’s a mess and it sounds like we’re living like this for at least another month. So so be it. The girls are so happy to have him engaged and here. That’s what matters most to me.
