He's still on the phone. Going on two hours now. More wine. Maybe edibles. Very giggly. Now I think he's talking to a friend I know. I feel so alone that I can't talk to him. That he doesn't want to talk to me. I want to scream, but I can't. I feel like a prisoner in my own home.
Originally Posted by DnJ
You know the benefit of a boundary. See that is not intellect that would rather avoid it. No, your reason knows the value of it, it’s your emotions that hinder you. Fear.
Tell me what you fear. And in doing so, you will tell yourself. The first step in letting go.
I am afraid that he'll leave me alone somehow--split our finances if he doesn't move out, and I have no money. I wouldn't be able to pay rent here or anywhere without income right now. I don't think my job will return for weeks, maybe months. I am afraid he thinks of me as someone he's just supporting now, how annoying. He's waiting for me to get fed up and yell at him so I'm the bad guy. I'm also afraid that he'll just ignore my boundary. I don't know how likely this is. But I couldn't enforce it.
