I am trying to figure out how to comfort and protect myself in this new situation. Today was the first full day of it, and it feels like it's been weeks. It's hard for me to imagine more than a week of this. I'm exhausted. Do I take a cue from the way H was after BD and just start wearing my own headphones all the time? I don't feel like interacting with him. I want to pretend he is not here. I want to focus on myself.
I should also say I want to be careful here, because right now I'm also motivated by a desire to give H the cold shoulder, to turn away, to shut down.
