My H flies back in tonight from business. He and I have different ideas about what it means to change routines in this pandemic. I can feel my cortisol levels rising already because I am scared I am in for a fight.
He wants to take DS with him on a camping trip for a few days. They would have to fly there. He feels very safe. I just want us all to be together during this time. But he gets so frustrated at me not thinking its a great idea I don't know what is up or down. If I say no I am the monster again and I have to live with it. Maybe a few days camping trip is okay? We don't have any camping supplies here so he needs to use his sisters, hence the trip.
I am continuing to try to detach, I just feel so worn down by these confrontations, and I feel discouraged because I know if we D they won't end. Possibly get more difficult.
the best apology is changed behavior. *************** me: 45 h: 48 m: 23 T: 26 DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11 BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016 BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016 BD3: H wants a D 11/2019
