At least he goes outside. It still hurts. He's talking to someone he loves and it's not me. We ARE roommates & we are STUCK here during this pandemic.
I have even more empathy for you here Can, as I had to listen to convos this week for the first time (imagining it was one of H’s friends and nothing more, but that could easily change). He’d rather spend time on the phone with anyone else! All of this plus the pandemic is a lot. Being stuck in the house with H 24/7 now is a lot. I feel like he’s a caged animal, and I’m waiting for him to snap. I think he’s practicing some denial that might ward that off, though. This is driving home to me that if I were interviewing roommates and alien H walked in, I would be like, That’s not a good fit! But somehow he snuck in and I’m stuck with him for an indefinite amount of time.
Too bad 00 can’t make it to ow/gf! Ha. I hope good things are revealed too, Can. It’s probably better to have that attitude than my current one, which is what crazy/selfish thing is coming next? I’ll flip my mindset too. What positive change or energy could this situation manifest in the future? Why should it only bring about bad?
This is driving home to me that if I were interviewing roommates and alien H walked in, I would be like, That’s not a good fit! But somehow he snuck in and I’m stuck with him for an indefinite amount of time. 
