what is it, half the years of the relationship? I hoped that was not the case, but its seeming so for me also, though you are more than double my time post BD/D.

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver