I'm actually not doing that well. I fell off the wagon last night and I was pretty pathetic. I asked him if he could ever love me again and if he misses me. UGH!!! I feel so stupid. I got so caught up in my emotions and started babbling.
He told me that he misses seeing me and talking to me but he doesn't think he can ever get back to where he was.
I feel so ashamed of myself right now.
We all backslide now and then. Learn from it and keep moving forward. You did it, it went poorly, now you know what NOT to do moving forward. Every misstep if a valuable lesson. Embrace that feeling of being ashamed. Remember it, hold onto it. Why? Because next time you're tempted, you'll remember why not to go down that road.
