H came home late Friday night and I picked him up from the airport in his car (his request). He was very excited to see me, and immediately noticed that I'd paired my phone to the bluetooth in that car (H got this car during S) and exclaimed that made him happy and feel secure and relieved, which was cute. He had to work some Saturday and Sunday, but not much. We were social together Saturday afternoon, and I had fancy dinner stuff to cook for us on Saturday. Sunday we hung out in the afternoon and snuggled a lot on the couch. We did have some talks Sunday on how to handle some stuff going forward, but it wasn't too heavy a talk (still productive, though).
I felt very secure all weekend. He was open about how happy he was to be home, and unpacked the stuff that he could. He spoke to work about transitioning back to our town, and work was very supportive. He had to go back to his house super early Monday morning for a doctor's appt, and work. He thought he would be able to come right back, but due to work hasn't been able to. He's been super communicative and has packed a lot of his stuff up to bring here to our house. Due to the nature of what's going on in the country and the nature of his work, some of this is uncertain. He is aiming to come back tomorrow.
It's hard being apart right now. I am trying to focus on current status mentally instead of automatically feeling like the distance = rejection. We have to be apart sometimes for long stretches anyhow (military), I am still doing GAL as much as I can with restrictions in place (saw a friend while H was at work Saturday, went running/walking dogs etc). I was somewhat worried H would exhibit codependency things over the weekend, but he didn't. There weren't any points of disagreement and it was a good mixture of being social and having quality time alone at home. I never felt I had to suppress any feelings, and he didn't either. Obviously there will be points of friction in the future, and we are both cautious to not fall into old habits or patterns that were hurtful. I feel in a better place, mentally, but am still continuing IC.
