I like the tiny good things and not really caring about where H is since he's bouncing all around. Desire to have the desire... I think that follows along the "feelings follow action" which works... but he's got to do the actual work and to want it at some level.

Good on you for holding strong, too, about the travel. The last thing you want is to get the family separated and someone get sick, or them to get stuck if domestic travel restrictions go into place. I'm so, so glad we didn't end up going on our vacation as we probably would have had to turn around and get on an airplane right back.

I hope you can keep working on detaching and healing yourself, no matter what is going on with him. Whatever you can do to find that calm space again you found on the beach. (((HUGS)))


Me (46) H (42)
M:14 T:18, D9 & D11
4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs
9/20 - present: R and piecing