Oh man. You are doing amazing. I felt the pain of your post about the last night. I feel like I do well, and then boom something like that happens and every ounce of pain comes out and it kills me to have him be so unemotional. I don't get it. Is it an ability men have that we don't? I don't know.

I wish I could hang out with you right now or talk. Sometimes it's so hard that we aren't allowed to communicate here in the outside world.

You are doing amazing at staying busy btw. I have had a hard time even getting out of bed. I keep getting sick I think due to the stress of it all. So seriously, be proud of how you are up and moving first thing in the morning. It's what I aspire to.

I am sorry. I hope you can find peace and comfort soon.


the best apology is changed behavior.
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me: 45 h: 48
m: 23 T: 26
DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11
BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016
BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016
BD3: H wants a D 11/2019