WW Patience, Limbo amd Fear

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I gave it some thought. Right now W is more like an acquaintance and or sister to me than a W or friend.

I thought about what I've enjoyed and disliked about our relationship from a few months before BD until now.
There is not much I enjoy. She cooks alot of meals, watches the kids and is ok to engage in conversation if the convo is short. This is not a spouse.

Everyday I dont D, she gets more spousal support.

Now the amount of bad things that crossed my mind. Long story short, it took me awhile to stop coming up with more problems or traits.

So, I see no reason to be friends or married other than finances and for the kids.

So finances, I'll fall under gov assistance until I get out of spousal payments.
For the kids, they will indeed lose but they will get a healthier father. Maybe I pay W to watch the kids if we could agree to terms.

Future OM and OW affect on kids, I have no plans to marry again. Maybe just short term fun but my eyes are open now. This would just happen all over again, no matter who I become because it is how the current generation is. OMs I can't control and I imagine a few will come and go. If I can afford it, Id get kids in counseling to help them deal with any issues.

My only last reason to stay is religion. Well since infidelity occurred, its allowable for me to D.

I have little reason to stay and quite a few to leave. Everyday I allow this limbo to continue, I lose respect for myself.

What am I missing? What's the point? Even if we R and Im happy with myself, would she learn to be happy with herself and would I be happy with her? Thats a stretch. I was thinking of giving her another chance to go to counseling but now I think I just want to D and move on with my life. Have my house my way, raise my kids my way, work for me and my kids. No more daily passive aggression, put downs, snarky comments. No more giving up my wants and needs. I think I just hit walkaway mindset. She had her chance.