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[CanBird]

~j~ Have you ever typed your heart & soul out & it disappears? Ugh..I just did that.

Any way... short version now. Don’t read into anything. Zero expectations right? As freaked out as I am about this virus panic, 00 & I have something new in comman. A shared interest? Survival! It's a different vibe in the house. It's nice having him spend SO much time with D3. Nice that I get a break. I want us to do something fun together, but we're not there yet.

After 00 had D3 in the morning, her & I did a GAL thing. 00 had to nap..lol..I think he's really getting how tired taking care of a kid is. D3 has SO much enery. He's never spent this much one-on-one time with her. Maybe it's easier because she's older? I'm just happy it's happening.

I made dinner & we all ate together. Totally treated 00 as if he was the friendly cashier who was hungry but too shy to take the food. "There's plenty! Help yourself!". It was really good & really healthy. I know he enjoyed it, I could see it in his expression. D3 probably ate the most. It was really nice to sit together. We actually sat & talked about current events & other positive things. Zero talk about the "elephant in the room". Zero expectations. Usually you can smell the elephant or feel its presents, but if it was there, it wasn't big, It was tiny.

After dinner routine was normal & nice too. And that's life with kids. Some sort of routine. She's a handful, and I see its tough for him to be patient, but I try to lead by example & do see him mimic my parenting. Its tough, especially when your the parent that's away. I hope he's enjoying his time with D3.

It's very late. I'm up in bed. So is 00. I hear everything, plus he snores. I've stopped checking to see if he's chatting with ow. It doesn't matter. He's here. He's in the house. He's made himself at home, put some of his things out like he did before. It doesn't bother me that he's here. It's good for D3 to see us get along. We DO get along. I'm taking a more mature approch with him; my 180'. This seems to work. The "take charge" woman gets noticed, not the helpless one. I am a strong indepentant woman, I just never took charge of meals/cooking. Not my thing, but if that's what it takes, I will wear an appron!