I'm glad you feel you can kind of take a breather here, wooba, with the period of NC.
Originally Posted by wooba
Our lease is coming up soon, although I do want to keep staying here just so the kids could have some kind of stability while all this is going on, I actually kind of hope that our landlord will not want to renew. That would force me to find another place for me and the kids, and for H to move all his stuff to wherever he’s staying right now.
Is it possible you could do a month-to-month lease, which would give you maybe more a feeling of freedom? Or, on the other hand, is it possible you mainly want the landlord not to renew so that some decision is made for you, and you feel like you can take some action without really having to decide to take it for yourself? Is it more the break in the stasis that is appealing to you, or do you think if it were up to you, you'd really want to move to a new place (regardless of where H is with dealing with his issues)? I wonder if any of those feelings could be influenced by the fact that you're feeling less hopeful at the moment. I can see why you'd feel less hopeful on the heels of that last convo with H, and how that would lead to re-examining your M in recent years. I don't mean to suggest you should or shouldn't be, only that it seems right that time will give you a greater perspective on how you're feeling, in terms of these decisions and other questions you're mulling over.
