One thing to keep in mind when you read her letter.... what she writes in the letter is only an indicator of how she feels right now. Feelings can and do change, so keep that in mind.
There have been countless stories here when a WAS says they are done (and they mean in that instance), only to come back a few months later feeling completely different and wanting to reconcile. In fact, it's happened to me 3x with my WAS.
Believe nothing she says (or writes).
This^^.
Please know, what you read is likely not what you're going to want to hear. The hope many of us would have is probably something along the lives of "kto, I love you and Im sorry. I miss you and want to fix this". What you'll probably end up reading will be blame, hatred and passive aggressive or straight aggressive remarks. If it is or isnt what you want to hear, remember Thorntons post...its how she feels NOW. I was emailed an actual nice email about W feeling bad about it, wanting to work on herself and how she wants the kids to come first. Well...no working on herself has yet to occur. I'd almost rather I never read that nonsense.
For anxiety, as others mentioned, hit the gym hard. Push yourself. Set and hit goals. The gym gets lots of stress, anxiety and anger out, plus feel good chemicals fill the body after.
H37, W37 D4, S2 ILYBNILWY 9/19 BD 9/19 EA discovered 10/19 Currently in limbo, no D or S process initiated
