I guess it wouldn’t hurt for a little update. I haven’t had the mental fortitude to do so lately. Some days I don’t know how I feel and where I’m going . I do know that I work a lot. And I’m often tired. I’m trying to just keep things together and not let everything fall apart around the house. I’m trying to get my exercise in because I really need it physically and mentally.
My cruise is booked and will probably be cancelled. I’m so sad about that. If they don’t cancel it and the family we are traveling with is going, we are too. Finally got a nice vacation coming. We got our panic in our hospitals right now. We aren’t even having actual meetings anymore. Just Skype meetings. They are preparing in our schools for online working. It’s crazy.
Work is having some big changes. Our boss announced her retirement. I’m sad because she’s great. The big boss is nuts. I’m hoping her replacement is decent
As for E. Pretty sure he’s not the one. There is just no depth to our R. He just talks about food and Netflix all the time. He doesn’t really have any deeper of a conversation, even when I try. He’s a good Netflix and snuggle type guy, but beyond that, not much for me. Plus, may his kids be grown, his after work schedule is so booked. I try to work my weekday around his sports schedule so we can se eachother once in the week. But he has now added accupuncture, Pt, massage, chiropractors....... he’s definitely a high maintanence guy. I’m not maintaining it, but really, he isn’t making much of an officer to flex with my schedule. Yesterday when he said he would be too tired after all of stuff and asked me if I was free Friday or Saturday which I told him I wasn’t, he did feel badly. I made a 180 by not trying to figure out a solution. I just told him do what you gotta do. If he wants to see me as much as he says he does, he will make it work.
My romantic life is still a flop. I’m hoping to get a fulfilling partnership sometime before I die, but I am facing that there is a good chance it may not happen for me. Some days it feels like my purpose is work like a dog and then I die. Some days I still hVe a glimmer of hope left.
