IC was weird this week as well. We spoke very briefly about dealing with my anxiety when he vacillates so quickly. And a bit about listening about the break up stuff. But she felt like we're in a pretty neutral space right now and wanted to shift gears to my depression and my mom's passing. It very quickly brought up a lot. And I was crying on and off a lot yesterday. I'm starting to worry that this crisis in my marriage just helped me bury all that mess further instead of moving past it. Which I'm sure that's something that I'll have to address the next time I see her. I'm in a better head space today. But being as raw as I was yesterday was a little surprising and a little worrisome as well.
Put yourself first. Take care of yourself. That is in your control and you will be the one to enjoy the fruits of your labor.
It’s always better for emotions and issues to come out as a surprise than not coming out at all.