Retainer at atty paid today.... I HAVE NEVER BEEN THROUGH D BEFORE
I'm a mess so my mom who is currently several states away has stepped up to the plate and making the calls. Paperwork for Legal S is being started - probably not available until next week.
My anxiety is sky high... but have continued to remain calm in front of H... at least I feel that way.
CW you said anger was a form of attachment. I know he jumped into to this today because because he felt that I could not leave it alone yesterday when he was done. I just wanted to show him proof that I did tell about X password... had the text. Today he asked to see it so I showed it to him and he says he doesn't remember that conversation.
Anyway he is set on divorce and I said I was confused because last we talked he stated he would file for Legal S. He kept stating he didn't know why I wanted S instead of D that his free atty stated legal S was for those who might reconcile and he is wanting to be done and not reconcile.
It was a struggle but I tried to validate that I understand he thought he was done with everything but I really needed a cooling off period where he isn't talking to me and I am not talking to him. AND I WON'T LIE... I want him to have time to reconsider EVERYTHING. Not just the negatives he is focusing on right now.
He stated that me wanting Legal S is so I can control the situation. He sees it as me controlling him. I understand that one of my negatives is that he sees me as controlling everything... He feels imprisoned in this house right now.
He went and took a shower. We chatted a bit more. He said it would be 2-3 more weeks before he had the pension information so I'm asking why we are rushing. How can it be fair when I don't have all the numbers??? Is this an equal split??? He says he can't leave until he files??? I said leave now. He stated he had no place to go... he has no place for his stuff. I said take what you immediately need and leave. You can come back for the rest later.
I then replied to previous statements he made to me.
