Thank you, CWarrior. Seems like I just need to decide and keep my boundaries in regards to being physical.
I haven't been on here in over a week since things have been picking up at work. For the last few months, it seemed like things with H were trending up (he would occasionally show affection, say nice things, etc) but he seems to have pulled back again. He's not talking or texting me as much (I'm still working to not initiate) and is overall more withdrawn and on his phone constantly. He seemed a moody like he'd been around BD so I half expected him to come out and tell me he was having an A last night and my reaction would be "Yeah, not surprised."
Felt frustrated with trying to GAL this past weekend. H went for a hike, didn't tell me with whom or where and was gone about 8 hours. I didn't ask any questions or act like I cared. I stayed home with the baby, which was okay becuase I could relax but it was also a little lonely. I tried to meet up with friends while he was gone but they already had plans and it would not have worked for me to come with baby. I did join an app to try to meet more mom friends in the area (not something that I would usually do so proud of myself here)
I overall was feeling very angry torward H this past week. What kind of sorry excuse for a spouse does this to his wife. He's also acting like a 15 year old constantly on his phone and avoiding responsiblities such as car and house maintanance. For example, his plate tags have been expired for over 6 months and he has yet to renew them. This would be something I would generally keep gently reminding him about but I just ignore it. And I hope he gets a ticket.
