I don't want a divorce II ---- NEW THREAD Part 4

[KitCat]

So as he plays games on his phone in other room I sit down to take of my business.

I had to atty - different atty. Only use this one every 4-5 years for child support/custody issues. S18 is getting ready for college and his dad always said we would split expenses. Now he is majorly back peddling... LIKE I NEED MORE STRESS. And, frankly I should be able to rely on my H for support and he isn't in the picture. I felt like I was always there to support him with ALL the drama of his kids and ex - for years I was his support system. It is a knife in the heart that he isn't there for me for this.

Anyway, H clearly stopped gaming in the other room to be able to hear my convo... LMAO... probably wondering WHY I'm calling an atty... If he listened closely enough he would have heard it was about S18 and college.

I'm off phone and he goes back to loud gaming.

A few minutes later I have to make another call to change an appointment with conflict. He stops gaming again to hear my phone conversation... He doesn't know its my Dr office because I am seeing the NP not the Dr and only using her name.

I left the house and blew off some MAJOR steam on the way home. I need to find a way to maintain my P*SSED attitude. But, lord help me when I see him I still melt... he was my everything... he was my person. I get it now that he is not AND he is not worthy of me at all... but when I see him... ugh... attraction... BUT, how can I be attracted to a doofus that is behaving this way and invited another woman into our relationship??

Must stay focused and P*SSED