~J~ I don't know what to say except the love is gone. Silly to say, but I really felt it leave me. He's back, staying in the home, doing things to upset me today & he succeeded. Not to mention, leaving things for me to see as if to say "I love someone else. Look at the fun I'm having!"

I left him & D3 alone to GAL. Ran into a friend that knows my sitch, (except for ow/xgf). I almost told her everything, but it wasn"t the right place. I feel like I'm done hiding his secrets. I've been quiet, because I was embarassed that my H cheated on me. Like I'm not good enough, I've failed. That's not love.

I can only move forward and have faith that D3 & I will get through this okay. I don't know how, but I am going to move forward like the courageous person I am. And breathe while I'm at it.






Last edited by CanBird; 03/10/20 08:27 AM.
~Never Give Up ~
2019
Mar BD
June BD
Dec Aow/xgf
2020
Jan he wants D
Feb he flys2 ow
Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn
Apr he leaves for work until Nov
Oct D FINAL 2020
Living MY Happiest Life Ever