A familiar story with questions eleven

[RR17]

Thanks, guys.
About 3 weeks in and I'm fine. I'm focused on other things that I have going on and that's a lot these days. Work, church, golf, friends, dinner with D18 and a side gig. I've even gotten involved in a local political project.

W and I have had limited contact. She sent over an amicable bill proposal and has been very nice during the one phone communication we had. I was sick about a week ago and she was sympathic-ish. I sense guilt. But who knows.?No expectations but it beats being at odds.

I have been suspicious of her mentions of another co-worker. I don't know the guy but he is morbidly obese and has a very young child. When W said she was moving out on Feb 22nd, I asked if he was helping. She said no and didn't seem shocked at my mention. Poor girl has such low self esteem that anyone that pays any attention can get her eye. No, I'm not sure but his name came up enough times during stories about work that I have my hunches. Very different than anyone I would ever imagine her being interested in. But I digress.

I often feel that I doubt I would even take her back if she tried. I could never restore the trust and she would never do what would be required.

Things like taking off the ring and telling the few people that I have have been new territory. After 24+ years it is odd and you get so used to being seen as a certain way. But I am in no hurry.