Kas - I have the same problem. It is so difficult to not imagine them being so happy and successful while we have to piece our lives together. I was looking through some of my original texts that went back and forth with my XW and was shocked. In one of them she hoped that D14 and I had a good hike together and she talked about her hike that she went with OM (she doesn't realize D14 and I both knew she went with him) to this new lake. All I could do was imagine her having such a great time while D14 and I were barely holding it together. Everyone says it will get easier with time but that doesn't help the pain now. Do you have nightmares Kas?
My H doesn't know that I know about the OW. Doesn't know I'm divorcing him.
I sleep really good in my new place so no nightmares here.
