Yesterday was tough... I did a lot of reading... watching videos on getting through a break up. Did a lot of self realizations.
Was still in my new cute sexy pjs and busy cooking at the stove with my back turned when H walked through the door hours before expected. He actually said hi to me first.... I still had my back turned and said hi back. He asked what I was cooking. He actually took dog in other room to play with him. He seemed calm and peaceful. His face more relaxed.
I finished up prepping meal and threw into slow cooker. Washed dishes. Asked if he had dishes to add.. he said - no that he left them at R's (male) friends house. I noticed that he had not brought in his suitcase.
I disappeared for awhile to get dressed and ready for the day. He came looking for me - seemed surprised I was going out as he saw me put on hiking boots which I rarely wear... He stated you going out? Yup, I told the puppy I owed him a long walk.
Continue to get ready. Was back in kitchen. Asked if he was taking the bike out? He stated maybe but he had to clean it up. (Yes, I wished he asked me to ride with him... but he didn't) I asked that he keep the other dog distracted while I left with puppy so he wouldn't be upset - reminded him that I am unable to handle both at the same time.. hoping that he would offer to join me... he didn't. I did catch him looking at me... not eye contact so much but looking at me.. I looked cute.
I left.
I returned home and he was gone for hours. For a man who doesn't want to commute he drove home yesterday at 11am... took the bike all the way back and I expect visited with R (male friend) and maybe OW and also stopped by his parents... then he drove all the way back home.
He was cold again... just like before. The calm of that morning was gone.
It turned out I just finished dinner at the same time and asked if he was hungry... he said yes and I made him a plate.
I couldn't handle the silence so I left. He showered. Moved his stuff into the other room and fell asleep in extra bedroom. By 8pm he hadn't gotten up - he made the drive 4 times yesterday and no sleep.
I caved and got him up. He went to work and the only thing he said before leaving was thanks for getting him up.
