We spent all day Saturday volunteering unloading truckloads of supplies and donations. Manual labor that felt really good. Ww was avoiding me all day while working. We went out for dinner and drinks with the volunteers after everything was finished and all night ww seemed distant and cold. She made it clear that she cannot continue to do this. I made it clear that I am so tired of being in love with someone that is in love with another person. NC started yesterday morning and she seems resolute in wanting to end things with me. I know, I know, "told you so" galore. I'm so broken hearted even though I know that, at the end of the day, I deserve to be with someone better. Someone who values commitment and understands what it is to love. Not the initial "oh I'm so in love with you" feelings, but to really love. To place that person's needs above your own, to sacrifice your own desires if it is not beneficial to your relationship. She was that person with me for so many years and now it's like I don't even know her. I feel so defeated and lost. Time to go back to the basics and piece my life together. I'm fairly certain she is now pursuing a full blown relationship with AP. Send me some love guys - it feels like a BD all over again (why does this never get easier?!).
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LBW 32 - me WW 31 T 7 M 4 No Kids 4 dogs
Separated 1y Navigating the mine field and GAL with or without
