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[CanBird]

~J~ Tomorrow 00 is returning to home base. He's told me how long and why he'll be here. The visit includes time with D3. Zero expectations.

So why do I feel like this is my last chance to reach out? The need to do something different instead of act as if I'm okay? There's a part of me that's screaming what if? What if he thinks I've just given up? What if he thinks WOW she didn't even try?

I do have to remember & review the facts. Regardless, I still feel for him & the need to do something other than say nothing. Yeah yeah, follow his lead. I agree with that. Look my best? You bet! And I was lucky enough to get my hair on Friday (thank you universe). I've got new clothes & I'm in good shape on the outside...Just have to reflect that on the inside too. I have to admit, trying on my old "uniforms" for work made me feel pretty good.

I'm prepping to cook a dish 00 likes. Why not? We all have to eat right? Cooking is not my thing, so guess that's a way to show I care. Doing something out of my comfort zone. The house is clean, grass is cut, just need to work on the pool. It's been extremly windy for days; lots of debris to clean up daily. Good workout for D3 & I.

As far as GALing the evening 00 is here, I'm not sure what to do, but it'll be something for me whatever it is. Time alone, really alone, without D3 is rare. So I best take the opportunity a few times while I can.

I don't know if I'll be posting while 00 is here. Just imagine I'm smiling on the outside with everything that comes my way on the outside