Still married couple from Scandinavia Part 2

[BenB]

Journal -

I haven´t updated in a while but it´s about time I do.

I´m meeting W for the first time in over 4 months on Wednesday. Here is the background -

We´ve had little to no communication in the last few weeks. Last week, however, she emailed me and asked if she can buy one of my CBD oils. She said she was at a cinema but could come by a few hours later. And if I don´t want to meet her, I could leave it in the mailbox and leave that unlocked. That wouldn´t make any sense of course because my neighbours would come knocking if I had done that but I was shocked that she would ask me for a favor like that. So I never responded.

Yesterday she wrote "Ok, I took the hint, could you please wire me a few hundred?"

I answered "sure , just did. Hope all is well".

She responded that the reason she wanted the CBD oil is because she found a lump under her breast and she is going to the hospital on Wednesday to find out if it´s cancer. I sent her a message on messenger immediately -

Me: I´m so sorry to hear that. When will you know more? You should have told me why when you asked for the CBD.

W: Thanks. Haven´t told anyone because it makes it real. But hopefully it´s nothing.

Me: Most often it´s nothing. Have you spoken to your sister?

W: The lump feels so different and I´ve got a bad feeling about this. So I don´t want to worry anyone.

Me: Let me know if there is anything I can do.

She thanked me and told me I have to be careful as well with the new corona virus spreading. We wrote about that a bit. I thought about it for a while before I wrote:

Me: Do you want me to come with you on Wednesday?

W: If you want to? The appointment is at 1.30pm.

Me: of course, see you there.

I know this isn´t DB but she has a history of breast cancer in her family and no one close to her lives here. If this is cancer, I don´t want her to be alone when finding out. I hope that makes sense.

As for myself, I have been doing fine. I don´t see myself as detached yet but I´m working on it every day. Seeing her on Wednesday might not help that but I think I have to put DB aside for the moment.