You must intentionally feed on that which makes you stronger, and equips you to handle the bad stuff that's trying to wear you down and make you give up on life. The advantage of having alone time, is that you can feast on the positive sources out there, as much as you want, whenever you want.
Thanks Sandi.
My W and I are both Christians so I've been reading a lot of Bible-based materials and praying. Both are hard though, as I find it hard to concentrate on reading anything and in my prayers I ask for the same things as I can't tell what's happening on the spiritual side. It's always easy to justify small 'signs' as answers to prayer, but equally easy to explain them away as something else.
My wife once said to me she would've hung in there if God had told her to, but He didn't. I think the Bible is pretty clear about separation and divorce but I guess it's human nature to think of ourselves as the exception. "If you really, really meant it to apply to me, you have to let me know, otherwise I'll know you didn't."
Sandi, as a Christian lady with perspective on the non-LBS's point of view, was there anything particular that made you turn back to your husband? Did you talk to God while you were going through everything? Did you hear from Him? If so, did it agree with what you wanted to do or did you have to explain it away?
I hope you don't mind me asking. I read back through some of your original posts, then tried to read AmyC's posts but I couldn't retrieve them.