It makes me feel like there is nothing special about me. Nothing worth that he would ever give a second thought that I really miss this girl.
Casting you as a Villain in his story makes it easier to live with his choices.
Originally Posted by KitCat
not keeping up with him on diamond head... 4yr ago???
"Diamond Head Summit Trail" - 1.6-1.8mi, 250-450' elevation gain. Reviews say short and easy EXCEPT the steps which are described as challenging. Can't imagine your going "slowly" or "quickly" on such a short trail would make or break his day--we're talking 20min (fast) vs. 60min (slow). Slower company means more time to savor views and wildflowers. I hike daily and wouldn't care unless you asked me to wait for you.
Silly excuses.
I did the hike... there was a lot of uneven ground. I am 3 yr older and have the shortest legs of my family. I only requested one break at a look out point. Of course my kids being young ran up the trail... I made it!!! But even if I was fit and was minus the 30lb. I've always had challenges with elevation hikes even when I was more fit.
It seems stupid to bring it up now.
And, it almost seems like he is angry and I am working out - I had let myself go and got frustrated. I thought he deserved a wife with a smokin' hot bod... I just turned inward when I couldn't be what I thought I should be for him... and he took that as the biggest rejection and I lost feelings for him.
Will he get past this??? Will he with enough space and time think more kindly toward me and what we had?
