I had absolutely no business in contacting him at all today. The space and time I was giving him and pulling back made him think... made him question... made him check in on me...
Now he feels even more justified to be in this PA.
I guess some H's come out of it and want to reconcile but many do not.
Your right. I miss my H. I miss the man he was with me but while it is all not my fault I see clearly where I lapsed and my neediness pushed him right out the door into something he was willing to leave and start anew.
I let my friend share these things and it stewed in me till I reached for him for reassurance... reassurrance that no one goes fishing on my boat but him and me... no one sits behind him on his Harley but me... AND, he is just laughing and throwing it my face how dare I think he would bring her to my house... how low do I think he is????
