All I’m saying is this is a really scary road to go down. You don't want to be saddled with an addiction to pills on top of everything else. Your doctor may be able to start you on some safer meds that can help. Just don’t fight her if she tries to limit you on these benzos. It really is in your best interest. Just google benzodiazepine addiction to see what I’m talking about and where my fear is based. I wish you all the best.
Yes it's a benzo which is why I'm terrified of it. The other meds she prescribed worked great until 9 days before court then I lost my ability to cope. I saw my dr (psych practitioner) today and she drug tested me so she's on it. She will absolutely cut me off if I start abusing them. I've got a long history with her so she trusts me.
I've taken .5mg daily for 16-19 days, didn't take it yesterday and I'm not counting the hours (I'm being VERY mindful of this). I want to FEEL the pain and work through this. This website is a blessing but I'm not mentally strong....yet.
I'm doing my best not to self destruct. I don't drink, not self medicating with men (was tempted early on), my only vice is junk food and caffeine. I go to bed on time, my house is picked up, laundry is done, cook most nights, doing well at work despite being yelled at. I'm in pain but I remind myself that this will pass. Please keep reminding me that this will get better.
