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[CanBird]

It's just a day at a time Can, and when that isn't possible, an hour at a time. So early days for you. I would be worried about you if you weren't riding the waves. The stages of grief are a real thing. Be wary when you hit bargaining. I thought some really crazy things and wrote an email or two I wish I could burn.

I have to say that most of the things I worried about have not come true. Even when OD has disappeared for very long periods of time, he has held up his financial responsibilities (of course not all of them do). I have definitely found my strength. My kids have struggled, but who knows how much of that they would have had anyway. I do see some good things for them too from this.

It's just time. In time it won't hurt as much and the path forward will look a lot clearer. You will move past the shock and the grief and find a much stronger you.

Thank you for this ((((Ownit)))) Grieving is rough. I've experinced the grief of losing a parent so I've been on this ride before. Of course they are different, but the level of gutt renching hurt is pretty close.

And in the end, I will be stronger. You're so right that all these emotions are normal! Thank goodness I have a network of ears to talk to & shoulders to cry tiny tears on & the eyes that see me here.. ( I leave the ugly cries for my pillow). My yard looks great too, because I vent my anger/frustrations out by working outside.

~J~ Had a good talk with my Dad. He's such a good listener. Always has good advice. Never judges my decission. Always has my back. He has taught me a lot over the years. I joke he's my financial adviser. He's so much more. After my mom passed he met someone, got married, got divorced. So he's been there too. Heck every singlecone of D3s grandparents (except the deceaced) has been through one or more divorces! Not like mine of course. I should write a screenplay!

Feeling much better. Venting IS good therapy.