The emotional roller-coaster you describe is real. Don't run from it, but don't sit home and stew in your own juices. One of the former posters here that struggled the most was a guy that would just sit in his office all day, then go home and sit at home all night. And he wondered why he struggled. He had a million excuses why he couldn't GAL. Excuse are easy. GAL is difficult. BUT IT IS SO VITAL. So stay busy.
Steve, this is SO TRUE for me. When I woke up this morning, I had that initial feeling of wanting to stay in bed with the covers over my head. I quickly made a list of things to do. Also four goals of things to do for myself each day. And I got up, got ready and have been getting things done. I have mild OCD, and I have to be super careful not to get stuck on a loop overanalyzing some thought. I have to be careful to recognize that and break that loop.
I had an IC appt today. I am so glad I didn't because I let that slide and haven't done it for awhile. It was so good to work through some things. To hear someone validate that I have worked so hard on this and I deserve love and respect. I am still taking your advice -- hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.
the best apology is changed behavior. *************** me: 45 h: 48 m: 23 T: 26 DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11 BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016 BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016 BD3: H wants a D 11/2019
