Feeling crap, need to get my emotions in check. Feel so much anger and resentment towards W at the moment and her introducing our kids to OM has really pissed me off. Feel totally disrespected and just want to tell her that, but that wouldn't change anything would it? W doesn't see it as she's having an affair as we're seperated - I'm guessing I shouldn't tell her how I see it?
Need to regroup. I've been kidding myself that I'm doing alright, but I'm clearly not. I'll arrange IC this week.
I've mentioned previously that W and I have mostly been getting along pretty well for the past few months. W has always said she wants us to "get along" and I get that as we need to co-parent. It's not like we've been hanging out together or anything, just our communication has been gradually getting more relaxed and friendly with the odd joke here and there. I feel like she has softened somewhat but not sure I should or can be too friendly anymore whilst OM is in the picture. I don't want to speak to her right now. I'm thinking it may be best to darken the shade a bit, keeping things light and polite, but more business like and to the point. We communicate daily about the kids, send daily photos of kids, text daily about kids, several phone calls per week for either one of us to speak with kids and of course the exchanges. We tend to go off topic often and I'll ask about her work or whatever and show a genuine interest.
I'm way too attached so I feel that going dark(ish) would help and would assist my healing.
