He is running. And he's going to keep running. I just need to accept that he may never stop and turn around and look back, and there's not a single thing I can do if that's the path he's going to take. I need to accept that my fantasy of us coming out on the other side of this together is far narrower possibility than I let myself believe before. And I really need to accept that no matter how much I love him, some day, I'll get over him even it it wasn't as easily as he got over me.
Yes he is running, he got spooked again, he’s gone back to his safe place because right now he is frightened of his feelings. He is confused and doesn’t understand what he is feeling. Ground yourself and don’t think the worst. I know this isn’t easy, to retain an optimistic perspective when you’ve just been crushed to pieces. He needs time, you need time, and you have that. Don’t make any rash decisions or rash interactions. Just keep yourself calm and in a safe place because that is what he needs to see. He is like a kite in a hurricane at the moment. Hugs x
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020
