Just wanted to send you good vibes and I'm thinking of you. I'm so sorry... I hope you are doing okay. Remember, you were saying you thought it was a good thing for him to MO so that you both could have some space to get some clarity... take this for what it is and try to focus on all the positives for you personally that this could bring. Space, clarity, time... anything else? I made a whole long list of all the good things that would come out of H moving out or into the basement and kept focusing on them all of December/January... I think it really helped me and maybe it could help you too?
Did you end up having a family day? remember, you are under no obligation to do anything. If you'd prefer the time to yourself to go get a mani/pedi or just be alone... do it. You don't need to assuage his guilt in any way.
Anyway, I hope you doing OK. You are strong and amazing and don't need him to be happy or whole... he is the one who is f**ed up and has to get his $hit together. Hopefully this helps him to do so.
xx M
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
