Insanity. You are getting a little window into the chaos in his brain! Scary, isn't it???? As hard as it is to be the recipient of all that confusion, sometimes I imagine how hard it must be to have the one with all of that happening inside. It has got to be awful.
I feel like when you get these mixed messages it makes DBing and detaching so, so hard... but probably more important than ever. Do your best to just let it flow over you.
But, you are NOT nuts.You are doing a great job... keep it up. you got this!!
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing