Cardinal, thanks for stopping by my thread. Especially because it nudged me to go find yours. It sounds like wherever you are it is warm enough to a little work outside. I envy you! Where I am it is snowing today. I do have my seed orders placed and in a few weeks I'll start the tomatoes under the grow lights. I wish it were garden season already because I do love pulling weeds and it is a great form of meditation. I love digging in the dirt. Anyway, since it is snowing here, this afternoon I went all the way back to the beginning of your story in the first thread and am now caught up. I agree that there is much similarity in the things that our H's have said! I am sure you must struggle with sadness, sorrow, anger... all those human emotions anyone in our sich would have. But I also see much strength and serenity in so many of your posts. Such calm and peace and zen. So be proud of that! And I see you really trying to grow and be a better person in the midst of all of this. I am still reeling with a roller coaster of emotions. It is all very new and raw so I am a long way away from that point in the future when I look back and have gratitude for the opportunity this pain gave me to grow. I understand your financial stress too. No amount of "I will be okay no matter what" actually pays the mortgage or puts food on the table. And yet it is essential to start with that one sentence. I will be okay no matter what. My kids will be okay no matter what.
And if you like water at all, maybe give water aerobics a try! I've been doing it for a while. I do the "old lady" classes in the warm therapy pool. It is pure joy. Our wellness center has a wall of windows looking out over the mountains and so you just float there, feeling weightless and magical and you see nothing but the edge of the water against the mountains and sky in the distance.
