I'm trying to focus on work and not where/what H is doing or when he might show up back at the house.
I guess ultimately it doesn't matter S or D.
He has crossed a line that I put out in our M before we were M. I really should move on because the worst of it is he continues to lie about it.
I think once things are D I would have moved on. We would have no reason to contact one another --- we would just move further away.
For him things have deteriorated so badly I know he can't see much except that he had fallen madly in love and had the utmost respect for me at one time. But, those are gone.
I'm having to sort out some finances. He needs to pay me X for his car insurance, gym and cell phone. I'm sure he has spent whatever he had on her.
I will work on NOT texting him OR calling him. I hate the fact that I always have to get the last word in. I want to leave him hanging - not the other way around. I was so empowered last Saturday. He snooped on me... lol. And, called for no reason.
I will get to a church on Sunday. Its not my norm but it would be a place to go with people. I will keep exercising. I will stay in contact with friends. My closet friends are not in the near area so that stinks.
I will spend time focusing on life as a single person and hopefully by the end of the weekend I can take off my ring.
