You were used to it so you didn't see the warning signs in your H.
Hoping you end up dating a lovely black man and it drives your ex crazy.
Funny you say this. When H first left I met a beautiful black man online. Gorgeous, smart, 58 years old, had a PHD, we clicked, talked for hours, texted all the time. He was making plans to visit me before ending it. He said I wasn't ready. He might have just been a predator but it doesn't matter I got the lesson. I needed to learn how to be alone.