I miss the IDEA of who he could be and the life we could have had more than who he really was. I was in love with a fantasy that failed to materialized. To be clear I ADORED my H. I was so stupidly in love with him that I took every crumb he offered and made a loaf out of it.
I haven't accepted the divorce no but I'm the one pushing for it. I truly to the depths of my soul just want to be free of him. It's just a piece of paper but at least I'd have court ordered support and I can move on with my life knowing how much money I'm looking at.
