The symbolism of this long journey is not lost on me, although that type of sentimentality and deep thinking is not usually my thing!
I just hope that I haven't got unrealistic expectations. The trip in itself will be fantastic; the whole thing is planned around a desire to see African elephants in the wild. But I'm also hoping that it will serve to 'ground' me; help me understand who I am; help me to see that I can be 'whole' without a significant other.
I am full of anxieties about practicalities, but I do recognise them and the fact that most of them may never come to fruition. It is strange in that I deal with other people's very stressful situations and problems every day and do it well. But I worry that I won't be able to cope if some small thing doesn't go as planned.
And I'm worried that I'll be lonely. There are other people on the overland trip, but what if I don't find a connection with any of them?
Anyway, too late to back out now, so I guess I will just have to see.
