Yes to the more time. You are allowed to still acknowledge you have feelings for your ex. It is absolutely a sign of your healing and growth and emotional maturity. it is part of the person that you are.
Only people who have been on the receiving end of this situation will understand that you can still love someone and fundamentally know that you cannot and should not be with them.
How lucky are you Yail? You have known real love. Mind blowing love for another person. Some people go through life and never have that.
I have only very very recently reached the stage where I can look back and acknowledge that we had a great love for one another and that thought isn't tinged by his more recent behaviours. I don't like him much at the moment but I still care for him and always will. We dedicated 30 years of our lives and have 3 legacies to that love. I will always have 'a' love for him, but it is a different love to the romantic and sexual love. It is also different to love that I feel for other people.
Somebody asked what I would do if he became homeless and the honest answer is that I would give him a room. It wouldn't be my bedroom though!! I don't want to be friends and I don't want to be a couple. I will accept that gesture is part of who I am and I will not allow what he has done to define me.
Allow yourself that love, acknowledge it for what it is and continue on your amazing path.
