Oh Pommy. I hate this kind of pain. You are basically a yoyo on a roller coaster. Too many ups and downs. I hope you can re-center yourself. This is just the worst though. My husband is planning on exiting also and it is also painful.

For me, the constant rejection hurt so much. And then after a while, I got tired of it. I got tired of my feelings depending on whether he wanted me or not. I just let it start bouncing off me. I still hurt. I'm still sad. But I keep putting his problems back on him.

What can we do to support you?

the best apology is changed behavior.
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me: 45 h: 48
m: 23 T: 26
DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11
BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016
BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016
BD3: H wants a D 11/2019