Anyway, point of post is I am proud of myself for saying nothing and fighting those urges to do the same thing I always do out of pain.
Congratulations, OG-- sometimes it feels weird to be proud of doing nothing but I know how very difficult that can be. Keep focusing on you, where you are, what you need. You've got this.
thank you for your support. trying to keep busy tonight so I don't think of it too much.
My mom is coming in tomorrow to stay a week. We booked it before his latest BD. I am worried about it being awkward. She definitely has feelings about him hurting me so much. I don't believe she will say anything. It just makes me anxious. I hate how hard it makes everything.
the best apology is changed behavior. *************** me: 45 h: 48 m: 23 T: 26 DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11 BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016 BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016 BD3: H wants a D 11/2019
