Today is such a hard day

[oceangrl]

cardinal! I was just thinking this today. It takes such tremendous energy to rewire your brain and do things differently. I am constantly reminding myself of my goals and long term perspective. My worth. Constantly asking myself what would be a 180 for me, or am I doing something different, or is this more of the same. I am always trying to be self-aware and it is exhausting!!! Well, truly we are all in it together.

Hi, oceangrl--I wanted to bring this over from May's thread and just say, oh, you are so right. And I'm glad you point out it takes a lot of energy to do things differently, because I don't even think that was in the forefront of my mind when I commented, and it's a good reminder to be kind to ourselves because we are working on changing ourselves for the better, and that is big, hard work. I never thought I'd be in a place where I'd be questioning my self-worth so often, and I'm ready to stop that. I want to get to a place where I don't have to remind myself; I just know. I'm not there yet, but it starts here, right? We can do this.

I keep reminding myself that!

Honestly, I was thinking today this site has saved my sanity and dignity. When feeling discouraged or hopeless I have often come here and just read other threads or the statements R2C posts. They pick me up and remind me I will be okay.