He is not in a place to hear that other than - telling his friends she realized what she lost the minute I was gone out the door.
I just keep looking at the cascade of events that got us here. Just a simple shift in the dynamics... rather than just a hey baby txt... a txt telling him about my desire to a bike ride when the weather was nicer.. a txt saying I couldn't wait to see him in the morning. Seriously all the things I was thinking but not communicating.
If I say those things now he just thinks I'm saying anything to keep him. He has said why didn't I do that 4 months ago?
I wish I knew.
I'm human.
I think he was sincere the other day when he said he was sorry for hurting me. He has been hurting for a long time.
