Post, part 2: Thank you also May, Wooba, PLC, Kindly for your support here on my corner of the board. It means so much. May, I think I missed your V-Day post, and I just came across a recipe that required sourdough starter and was like... do I want to get some? I've always been a bit overwhelmed by the thought of all the feeding that's required, but I guess it probably becomes second nature after a bit, yeah? I was also looking at the King Arthur starter! Wooba, it felt so good to dye my hair at the beginning of the year. Just a refresh.
The latest trend here of H being gone every night (though he's usually home by 10 or 11) has continued from last week. I did have trouble readjusting after I realized I'd gotten used to him being home almost every night prior to that, which had at first been such a surprise. I do find myself wondering why he's distancing himself now again, though I try not to dwell on it—sure, maybe it was because I made a move on him, but for a whole week after that nothing changed in his behavior. If I'm zigzagging on my journey, he might as well be too, especially if depression is part of it. He's got a photobooth photo of him and his (girl) friend in his room, from their V-Day evening. He knows I go in there from time to time, since our clothes storage spills over there. I know they could be just friends or they could be something more. Even in high school, his best friends were girls. (Now I'm like, another sign of NGS? Ah.) Either way, she's someone who only knows him as he presents himself now. Either way, I miss taking those photos with him. Well, it hasn't messed with my overall PMA too much this week. Keep the focus on me, right?
Two things that stuck out to me this morning, from Job and Steve85 in response to KitCat. A reminder that I have thought as much about my sitch, but don't often give my own words the consideration they deserve. I'm too close to my own sitch but also don't trust myself enough.
Originally Posted by Steve85
I've seen a lot of these sitches KC. And in the one's where a WAS wanted to be out the door as soon as possible....they were.
Originally Posted by job
Actions speak louder than words and quite frankly, right now, his actions don't match up w/his words. If he truly wanted out, he would have been gone by now and either stayed w/his parents full time or w/some of his friends/co-workers.
Anyway, I made shortbread cookies for a friend this morning. And ate a few myself.
